I'm in Distress

Reason #6 to be Skinny:

So I won't feel embarrassed when I go to the gym.


Weighed in this morning 189.2

It's not what I wanted, but at least it's in the 80's. Plus it means my BMI is still in the "overweight" zone and not the "obese" zone. I need to take these small victories.

The day itself was pretty uneventful. Other than me wanting to tell my job where to show it. My boss just likes to insult my intelligence every other time I work. Argh! I don't even want to talk about it.

So For breakfast I had Cinnamon Toast crunch with fat free milk (175).

Lunch I had a small salad (90).

Dinner was another fresh steamer thing. This time Chicken pad thai (270). It was actually kinda gross. I don't recommend that one. although it was bearable after I added pepper flakes to it. I love pepper flakes, I have rediscovered my love of them. =D

Crimson tide came in today too, so I let myself have a snack of chocolate sugar free pudding. I thought it was within the 50 calorie limit, but turns out it's actually (60). Well, I guess I know for next time =/ and today is fail for sticking to the rules. =(

Calorie total was 595, still under 600.

I need to head to bed now though since I am getting random food cravings. Breakfast comes first thing in the morning. Night all.

~Wendy

You only meant well, well of course you did!

Reason #5 to be Skinny:

So I can finally show off my stomach.



Still oddly happy about the pants =)

So lunch, had strawberries and cream oatmeal (130).

Then went to class, did boring stuff, and got distracted by the internet!

Was hungry, didn't feel like cooking (more like didn't have enough time to clean my kitchen AND cook). I was going to go to Taco bell, but after a long internal argument decided to just go get a lean frozen meal from walmart instead.

Overall a better life choice.

So Dinner was Healthy Choice Cafe Steamers Balsamic Garlic Chicken (270). It was amazing! One of those things that I can believe I can eat. MUCH better choice than T bell, where at minimum I would have wasted 380 calories!

So my total for today was ((575)) calories!!!! That's pretty good. Although it is tongue in cheek because of all the juice I've been drinking but not counting =/

Oh well. Tomorrow morning is my first weigh in. Let's see where my starting bar is for this time around.

Night all!

~Wendy

I don't give a damn about my bad reputation!

Reason #4 to be skinny:

Because I can fit in smaller pants!!!!!!!



HOLY SHIT!

Really, I am sorry for blogging so much today but HOLY FUCKING SHIT!

I was walking into my room, and saw the pair 12 pants that I had sitting on my desk. You know, the ones I tried on last like a month ago and wouldn't fit over my giant ass!?!?!??!

So I get all like "Hmmmm I wonder!"

Now when I went from size 16 to 14 originally the only reason I knew I needed to was because a friend of mine (*cough* John *cough*) Pants me! So I tried the test with my 14's just now. Could I pull them off without unbuttoning them? I tried and I could! (although barely).

So I picked up the 12's. The waste was so small I was like, there is no fucking way!

So I pulled them up, and they went over my ass (with a little help from jumping and the squat test).

Then came the real test. Could I button and zipper them?

And I could!

So they are super tight, and I have a muffin top, but they fucking FIT! OH MY GOD!

So I can fit in size 12s and I am on cloud 9.

Time to go eat lunch. I just needed to share with someone =D

~Wendy!!!!!!!

Made my decision, lead a path of self distruction

Reason #3 to be Skinny:

So Boys will actually STOP to look at me.



Hey guys!

Sorry if I'm posting to many blogs for your taste, but I really need to make sure that I get back into the habit of blogging.

So far today I've gotten up and stuck to my rules. A half hour after waking up I ate 3/4 cup Cinnamon Toast Crunch with 1/2 cup Fat Free Milk (175). I am back on the plan =D

I can't wait to start seeing the numbers drop again. Screw doing this "The right way" I managed to lose 15 lbs doing it my way before, and when I switched over I stayed the exact same, for over a month! That is wasted time I will never get back! FUCK!

But, that's why I'm back on track now. Seems like almost everyone else died off here while I was gone though. =/

To bad, I miss reading about everyone else's battles too. In the whole makes me feel not alone way.

Anyways, peace out for awhile! Hope you all have great days! I'll report back in tonight!

~Wendy

You're not the Jesus of Suburbia!

Reason #2 to be skinny :

So I can face beach season with confidence!


The rest of today played out mostly good. Had to have a snack, half a cheese stick (30).

Had dinner of a package of beef ramen (380). I added dehydrated crushed red pepper flakes to it at a friends recommendation. It was AMAZING! If you like spicy food, and can afford the calories then you really need to try it!

Tomorrow I'm going to stick to the plan again. Haven't been to the grocery store to get lunch foods, but I might even be able to get a "double breakfast" in based on my rules.

Also missed my guitar lesson today. Not a good way to get back into things. Blah!

It's the end of the semester, and there is so much to do, and not nearly enough time. I'm going to focus on the positive though.

I felt hunger in my stomach again for the first time tonight and it felt great. The hungrier I feel, the more I feel like I have earned the food I'm eating. I mean that in a very non diet ruining way too.

Well, I'm off to catch some sleep. Night all!

~Wendy

Nice Guys Finish Last +(NEW RULES)

Well, I'm officially back. The new plan starts today.

You'll have to forgive me if I don't actually count calories for a few days. I'm a little scatterbrained and need to restock my kitchen with foods I know.

So far today, breakfast and lunch have been the same thing. Cinnamon Toast Crunch with Fat Free milk. =)

I have decided that I'm not counting liquid calories either at the moment (Ex: I will count the milk on the cereal, but not the juice I drink). I'm doing that just because it is spring cold season, and my allergies are more than enough to deal with right now without a cold. Orange Juice helps.

I started playing my guitar again yesterday. It's time that I got back to the things I love, and boy do I love that guitar. Yesterday's lesson wasn't all that great though, I've done a lot better. Hopefully it will start coming back to me. It's for sure been awhile.

I quit the biggest loser competition. I know it doesn't seem like I should, but I needed to. I looked back at all my old entries, and before the competition I was losing weight. Some weeks were small, but I was ALWAYS losing. After the competition started, I didn't lose anything. In fact I kept on a gain of about 4 lbs! BOO! People were making me stick to their work out instead of my own, and me and friends would go out eating way to much "because we're all in the same competition". So screw that! I am done with that all!

We're going back to doing this my way! So here are the rules, the same ones I was following before:

1) You must eat breakfast within 30 minutes of waking up, to jump start your metabolism. If Breakfast has to come later (Like if you are eating with family or such) then you must put at least 50 calories in your body within that 30 minutes (a small glass of milk would work great.)

2) Breakfast will NEVER go over 200 calories. EVER! End of story.

3) Lunch will NEVER go over 150 calories!

4) Repeat after me: "I am NOT hungry."

5) Try to avoid snacks at all costs (However sugar free gum is acceptable.) In the event of needing to snack, snacks will not exceed more than 50 calories for the day!

6) Dinner will NEVER exceed 400 calories! There are NO excuses!

7) A "cheat" is allowed, but only if it is preceded with at least 24 hours of fasting! The size of the cheat doesn't matter. (Ex: Indulging in Starbucks, eating at a party without counting, popcorn at a movie, etc.)

8) If the cheat rule is broken (e.g. friend surprises you with starbucks) then you must have as little of it as possible, and make up for it with an extra hour at the gym (Yes, that means added to whatever else was planned.)

9) Weigh ins and measurements are now moved to Wednesday mornings. Going home for the weekend is no longer and excuse to not weigh in!

10) All posts will be closed with a New Reason to be Skinny


I think that covers everything for now. If not I will be back to add more.

Also working towards rewards that are now listed on the right (or will be shortly.) There is no excuse to lose.

I still want to be competing with someone, but it would have to be someone that is like minded, because clearly The biggest loser competition just worked against me. Well, see all you later. Wish me luck!

~Wendy


Reason #1 to be Skinny:

To look good in black skinny jeans!

I'm on a roll, no self control...

Still alive, just seem to have lost the urge to write.

Basically after pulling the all nighter working, I ate my weight in food over the next few days.

I didn't gain a thing. I will never understand that.

I have however been being really good the last few days (even if I have been eating out).

I need to start using this blog the way I use too though, start calorie counting again. Bet the weight will just come right off then. I have goals again!!!!

Decided that I am going home for Easter, mostly because I'm going to be picking up my new car while I'm there! I'm so friggin excited!!!!

Part I am not excited about though is Easter itself. My family has been off my back for awhile now when it comes to Easter, mostly because I HATE almost all food that has to do with it. Always have, since I was LITTLE! So yeah.

Problem is, John was hinting that he wants me to go to his house for Easter dinner if I'm still around. (The two of us actually do share holidays with each other. It's weird I know, but I really kinda like it). This is a problem because he has a big Italian family, and the damn Italians judge you on food, and how much you eat, and blah blah. I wouldn't care except half his family hates me anyways, mainly because I'm not his girlfriend (I'm actually with them in that part and don't understand why he brings me around more than her sometimes).

Graghhhhh maybe I'll just leave town early. Take my car and run!

Well what happens happens. But monday or tuesday depending on when I get back, I'm reviving this blog and my diet. You will know EVERYTHING that I put in my mouth.

Dirty or not ;-)

Well happy holiday anyways. I hope everyone makes it through in one piece.

~Wendy