I don't play your rules I make my own....

Ugggg, well let's say this. I don't sleep well, and survive on very little sleep in the first place, but when I CAN'T sleep (like last night) it does cause screw ups the next day. =( Some were damn well my fault, and at least one wasn't. Soooo here it goes... almost all bad today.

Breakfast was milk and cereal (190).

Did pretty well on my midterm too. I know I passed, and I feel confident that I at least got a B.

My Hot water and heat were both shut of on surprise this morning for repairs to be made. Boo! So I had a sink full of dirty dishes I couldn't wash, which also meant no possible way to make a real lunch. So lunch was a cereal bar (90).

Problem was, being up for soooo long, that wasn't cutting it. So I grabbed some croutons (60). It still didn't cut it. Now remember that I said my heat got shut off too. SO it's winter and my apartment is starting to get cold a few hours later.

The worst part is that I'm cold, and for some reason that makes me hungry and want to eat. So, without really thinking about it, I ate some saltines (120).

Did make it to the gym! Plus it was exciting. I made 2 miles, over 5 minutes faster than I did yesterday!!!! HELLS YES! I was really excited!

Came home, and finally did dishes so my friends could borrow my kitchen to cook dinner. When I was done with that, I realized that my blood sugar was dropping. Now, I've had enough experience to know that I don't mess with this. When my blood sugar drops, I drop, literally!

So to fix the problem, I had to get something with A) Sugar, and B) protein . This ended up being those crazy peanut butter granola bars I bought on accident the other day. It was (150). It did however do the trick, andthat was at least good.

Then a couple hours later, had dinner with friends. They made chicken and steak quesidilla's. Thinking about my blood sugar still (when it drops that low, you're still in trouble for the rest of the day), I ate without thinking and PROMISED that I wouldn't feel bad about it. In the end my stomache hurt, and yeah I felt fucking horrible shit.

My calorie count going into dinner was 615. That's an entire day normally!!!!! PLUS DINNER! =( fuck.

~Wendy

P.S. I forgot to mention yesterday that I was watching some amazing reverse thinspo on TLC yesterday. The shows Half Ton Mom, Half Ton Dad, and Half Ton Teen, were on. The lady they showed on the first one had a BMI of 113!!!!!!!!! She died in the end though =( I felt horrible for her kids.....

So what, I'm still a rock star...

So, I'm going to take things one step at a time. I can handle one work out a day. I could probably even do two, except finding the time to fit them in. I started this by just restricting for a few weeks. So, now I'm going to do just a few weeks of one work out a day (not counting skating), and then when I need to step it up.

Now, I don't like grits. I don't understand them, and I am a true American yank in that I eat oatmeal all the friggin' way. I don't get grits!!! They physically confuse my mouth! But, I had decided to give them another chance.... again. So breakfast was cheddar cheese grits. The entire thing was (100). Of course, I didn't eat the whole thing because they STILL confuse the shit out of me, but we'll still count it as that.

Checked my MP3 player before work and it's 100% fine. Screen and headphones included!!! I was convinced I'd at least lose the headphones, so that made my morning!

At lunch, I didn't want salad so I had Cinnamon Life w/ 2% milk (195). eek!

Went to the gym again, and got more time in on the elliptical. Felt pretty good about that.

Then had dinner or Teriyaki salmon and mushrooms (349). Worked on studying for my midterm. Look's like I'll be doing an all nighter tonight , right after I take a 3 hour nap. Because I'm going to be up, I planned for another meal (mostly because if I can't concentrate because I'm hungry, that ruins the point of the all nighter.) So I had tbell with Izzie and Will. I'll count it now since it's "before" my nap. Anyways so add (400) for that.

My daily total is now 1,044. Okay, I can deal with that. Plus that 44-45 might not exist because I DID NOT eat all those grits.... ewwwww. Sooooo anyways. Off to catch a nap, and then study!!!!

Catch you all tomorrow!

~Wendy

P.S. My secret peeks at the scale are starting to look promising again. Let's hope it keeps up =/

So I'll cash my checks and place my bets, and hope I always win...

Okay, so I got 2 workouts in today. 3 might be just to much for me to handle. =o

Got up, had breakfast Cereal and skim milk (165).

Popped some gum (10), and headed out to the rink. Spent the morning doing edge drills. Ewwwww Mostly because I was sore as hell afterwards!!! 0.o I've decided that rink time now counts as a workout, especially if I'm going to be doing that shit while I'm out of shape.

Went to class, came back and had lunch. Salad (100).

Went to class, and then came back and went to the gym with my biggest loser team. Spent a half hour on the elliptical. I was aiming for 40 minutes, but my heart rate was through the roof! I twas running from 200 to 180 the entire time! So I decided to just cut it short. I just want to work up to doing an hour again! ahhhhhhhh

But yeah, then went to the grocery store to pick up a few more things. Bad choice cus I din't have my head straight. When I got back I had bought 2% milk on accident, which is 65 calories per 1/2 cup rather than 45!!!!! Also I bought some cereal bars that ended up being 150 calories a piece because I didn't pay attention. Fuck. My. Life!

Had Crystal Light Peach Mango Green Tea after both work outs too. (10)

Came home and found out that I had a water bottle mishape which caused half of my peach mango tea to dump all over my bag. =( ALL OVER, and one my MP3 player too!

I haven't turned it on yet to check it, because I know that can fry electronics. I put it right into a ziplock bag with rice, hopefully it's fine tomorrow! I don't have money for a new one, and I just got it in august! Augh!

So yeah, had dinner. It was the last of the Southwestern Steak and Potato soup (229). Now I'm watching the olympics and getting ready to head to sleep.

Calorie total for today was 514! =)

Well, good night all. See you in the morning.

~Wendy

Get down with the sickness!

Such a weird day. I've got lots to tell you about.

First, got up and had breakfast. Strawberry Fields Cereal w/Fat Free Milk (165).

Went to class came home and had lunch. Salad (100).

Had sugar free gum throughout the day (20).

Had dinner of Teriyaki Salmon w/ mushrooms (349), and then went to work.

Calorie total for today was 634.

Good news too! When I woke up this morning, I was an entire pound lighter than yesterday! To bad it's a day late, huh?

Bad-ish news: When I was at work, I got a text message. On campus is having a Biggest Loser competition, and my friends were asking me to join the team. =( I agreed, but it's weird because it felt like a "way to be a fatass" intervention. At least we're using my scale though, so I don't have to deal with discrepencies!

There are other people trying to lose weight too, but I doubt my team will win. Erin (the damn paczki sabotager) is even underweight!!!!! No one had better give me shit for how fast I plan on losing this weight! The plus side is, they are going to give out 2 individual awards where you are judged seperatly from your team. I plan on winning this!(I'm a little competitive if you hadn't noticed by my sports obsession)!!!!

So since I had to go to the first weigh in (they are weighing in every 2 weeks on monday) I missed being able to work out =( I might have been able to make up for this, but it was sprung on me so late. Anyways, now they are planning on having group trips to the gym. I plan to add these on top of my normal work outs. So depending on the day I should be getting in 2-3 workouts. (I don't count my time drilling at the rink as a workout for me).

So if all goes well, I should be getting in 3 workouts tomorrow!

Well, let's bring this!

~Wendy

P.S. Any suggestions for good upbeat workout music?????

Shake, Shake, Shake, Shake, Shake it!

Hookay, so here's my day. Weigh in this morning was shit! Had breakfast of Kashi Strawberry Fields Cereal with Skim Milk (165).

Studied for my Midterm.

Had lunch, Salad with croutons and kraft low fat house italian dressing. (100 (up 5 extra because of new lettuce)).

Studied for my Midterm.

Took a shower so that I didn't smell like a lazy bum. Then ate some dinner. Hamburger 'n Fries Pot Pie (340). That was the last of that one, and god am I glade it's gone!!!!!

Watched USA own Canada. XD Wasn't sure who I was rooting for at first (it's almost impossible to root against Mike Babcock), but because the sportscasters weren't even giving USA a chance in hell of winning that's where I sided. SO Guess what!!!!!! USA WON!!!!!!!!!!

After that I went back to studying for my midterm. Also made Irish Cream Coffee so that I can stop falling asleep. (82)

So here I sit, studying, and watching the Sweden v. Finland Game. GO SWEDEN!!!! They are ahead 3-0 right now with one period left to go! I want Sweden to win, but if they stop scoring now USA will be the #1 seed team! (Sweden has to win by more than 5 to beat them). So yeah that's my day.

Calorie total for the day is 687. It's acceptable, but not great. As long as it's under 1000 it means I didn't fail for the day.

Tomorrow I am getting up early to study more, then class, work, and working out. Geeze! It's gonna be a long as day. Night all.

~Wendy

Let's start over again....

So then...=(

I only lost 0.2lbs this week. That's pretty horrible. At least it's better than gaining! I'm trying to stay on the bright side, but it's not really working.

Well, let's look at it logically then.

Problem: Only lost 0.2 lbs last week.

Solution: Start working out this week.

Problem solved. Starting Monday, I'm going to get back on a workout routine. My body clearly needs it.

In other news, my measurements are up. Feel free to comment as you may. I know they are fucking horrible. I know that my thigh is the size my waist should be. I know that I'm a fucking fat ass! This isn't even one of those "Oh, I'm sooooo fat tell me I'm skinny so I feel better" things. Nope, just plain facts. I am fat.

Problem: I am fat

Solution: Stop fucking eating everything in sight you fat cow!

Problem solved, now let's just stick with it.

I will be thin, I will be thin, I will be thin, I will be thin, I will be thin, I will be thin, I will be thin, I will be thin, I will be thin, I will be thin, I will be thin, I will be thin, I will be thin, I will be thin!

Now I need to go get breakfast, I have a midterm to be studying for.

~Wendy

P.S. Offer still stands, anything you might want to know about me, feel free to ask.

Shake it like a polaroid picture!

John called back last night. We ended up talking until almost 5am. So typical of us really. lol

So I woke up first at 10:30am but I refused to be up on my day off with only 5 hours of sleep! So I made myself go back to sleep, and I got up for real at 1:30pm. I woke up feeling much less bloated then yesterday, sadly the scale didn't reflect that. =(

Since it was so late, decided to have breakfast and skip lunch. So had peach oatmeal (130).

Watched America's Next Top Model, and then headed out to go grocery shopping to by things to make dinner. While I was at the grocery store, I decided to just go ahead and splurge on some raspberries.

When I got back, I ate some raspberries (64) while waiting for the Salmon to defrost. When it did, I got to cooking. Ending with dinner of Teriyaki Salmon with Mushrooms (349). I also drank some Cranberry Juice that was left over from cooking. I forgot to check the calories, but I figure at least it was good for UT health. Other than that had a strawberry margarita to celebrate it being Saturday and making it through the week.

So overall my count for today was 542 calories!

Tomorrow is weigh in, and I'm not looking forward to it. With all this bloating it looks like I've lost know weight this week. I'm hoping for a miracle for tomorrow morning. To top it off, I'm going to take and post some measurements tomorrow. I'll add them in a little box right under stats.

Oh, and I'm going to kinda take a "before"(minus 13 lbs) picture. Sorry, but you guys don't get to see it until there is something else to compare it to. It's bad anyways, so don't worry.


Anyways, I've been thinking about how I haven't really introduced much about myself yet. I don't really know what to put though. I think I'll leave it up to you guys, is there anything you want to know about me? Ask away and I'll answer!

Anyways, gonna call it a night. Got to get back to studying before I crash for the night. Tomorrow is the big USA v. CANADA game for mens ice hockey. FRIGGIN EXCITING!!!!! lol I am such a sports geek!

~Wendy