I've found a reason for me, to change who I use to be

Dearest Readers,

I don't know who you are, or if you even exist right now. My life has recently become an uncertain whirling mess. The only thing I can be sure of anymore is that I need to change.

There are many things wrong with me, and many of them are out of my control. Don't get me wrong now, I love me. That's no lie, I REALLY love me, but I am also nowhere near perfect. While I can admit that I will never be perfect, being closer wouldn't hurt =)

I'm about to start on a life changing journey, and since I hope that you will come along and support me, I guess I should tell you a little bit more about myself.

When I woke up Monday morning, I stepped on the scale and one of my worst nightmares had come true. My weight is above the 200lb mark. It's not the highest I've been, but it's too close for comfort. When I was at my heaviest, I decided to make a change, and lost 10lbs, then through perseverance and going vegetarian, I lost another 10, bringing my total down to 190. I stayed there for a long time. This time last year I got a bad case of the flu, and dropped another 10lbs over night. I was the smallest I'd ever been at 180!

Since the last 10 lbs came off literally overnight, everyone kept telling me that I would gain it right back. "It's just water weight!" they said. They were wrong. I was 180lbs for over 6 months!

So what happened? I started eating meat again, and moved out on my own. Living by yourself should make dieting easier, right? Well leave it to me to screw that one up. One to many trips to the drive thru with friends, and over the last few months my weight has crept back up until it has reached my current nightmare.

I know this isn't me, and it shouldn't have to be! I'm tired of living in this nightmare. It's time to wake up. So now here I am. Time to take control back again!

Although I live on my own, my life is very busy. There are days when exercising is the last thing on my mind. Being a full time university student can take it's toll. Not anymore! Everyday since Monday, I've MADE time to work out. It's going to be the same way from now on!

For all intensive purposes you may call me Wendy. It's not my real name, but it will suit our needs. I'm hopping that this blog will be a place that I can be brutally honest and open. It takes accountability to win this war, and I want to post not only my successes, but also my failures. That's the reason that I choose to remain anonymous.

I have currently vowed to weigh myself only once a week, and I will change my stats (upper right) accordingly. I could use a friend to help me with this, since none of my real friends understand.

I NEED help, but from this moment I'm taking back my life.

Game on,
Wendy