What do you want from me?

Reason to be Skinny #19:

So boys won't hurt themselves trying to prove they can pick you up. (Stupid boys)



Oh jeez yesterday.....

I really did want food. Really bad =/ I was doing so well too. I actually made bullion chicken broth (5 calories per cup) to have that as a liquid meal.

It was AMAZING! I sipped it slowly, and nothing was out of control. Plus, at that point it tasted pretty damn good too.

Then Will came over, and raided my fridge. Since there's "nothing in here" (yeah, I know! I made it that way!) he decided we should go get a pizza to go with our beer.

The Pizza and Beer is a good luck charm for the red wings. It's two specific brands, and yeah it has to happen. So although I tried to resist that, it had to happen.

So we got pizza and bread sticks. We dropped some off to Izzie (who wasn't feeling well), and me and Will took the rest back to my place to finish watching the game.

Now, I've NEVER had trouble eating in groups of people. As long as you keep cool, and don't attract unwanted attention (harder than it sounds, I know) people will generally distract themselves from watching ANYONE else eat. Act like it's no big deal, and it isn't.

The problem with that is, it doesn't work in one on one situations, so basically when it's just me and will, I have yet to come up with a way for him to not notice what I ate. Example: He's going to know I didn't eat pizza because knowing how much he's eaten makes it obvious how much I didn't.

So, mostly because I didn't want to deal with that, I ate.... a little. I still ate the least out of anyone (including Izzie) and no one is the wiser that I fasted for 2 days before that.

Now Izzie and Will, move in tomorrow, andI don't know what to do. I've never had to hide this from ANYONE before. Not while living with them. Oh jeez is it going to be stressful. But I'm not gonna change my eating habits and get FAT just because they live here. EWWW!!!

GAH! I don't know what to do about this. I'm taking it one day at a time, but they're gonna be here for a month. Then after that there are summer BBQs and Grad Parties, 4th of July and Memorial Day parties to contend with. >=/

But again, one day at a time.

I figure I should go back to my eating schedule, but I still really don't feel like eating, so who knows what I'll do.... =/

~Wendy

Oh my gosh...

Reason to be Skinny #18:

Wearing heels will be easier with less weight to carry around.


Really just dropping in to tell you I broke the fast.

It had to do with Will, Pizza, and Hockey.


Could have been much worse, but I'll give details tomorrow.

=( My weight wouldn't budge anyways.

*Sigh*

~Wendy

Tonight I'm not taking no calls cus I'll be dancing!

Reason #17 to be skinny:

No more "chub rub" on jeans or other pants!!!!


I want to eat so friggin bad right now. I'm not going to though, it's all in my head. I'm not even hungry.

So apparently my friends are doing a dinner thing this week (I thought we weren't because of finals). It starts in 20 minutes. I'm doing so well today too!

If I go over there, this will break and I know it! There is no way to just hang out without someone wanting me to eat someone. It's not like yesterday with Izzie and Will either. These skinny little pricks actually do make everyone eat around them, so that they can feel better about themselves eating.

Remember Erin, the one from the packzi incident? Yup, she's the one cooking tonight. She's also underweight. It's like shut the fuck up, sorry my metabolism doesn't work like that! >_<

So anyways, I'm skipping this week. I'm not gonna text or call or make excuses, just not going. On the off chance that they call (they won't) I'll tell them I took a nap and overslept. They'll believe me since I sleep like shit. That's also my excuse if I run into them a day that is not today.

On the off chance that they do call, that also gives me an excuse to not eat when i get over there. I just woke up, and my stomach isn't ready for it!

=D I am a fucking Genius.

I'm lucky there's nothing worth eating in my kitchen right now. I'm fucked if Will shows up with a pizza tonight though (it's a hockey tradition.) It will take some fast talking to get out of that one 0.o Chances are slim though, so yay!

How's everyone else doing?

~Wendy

P.S. GO WINGS!

I have got no service in the club you see see

Reason to be Skinny #16:

The smaller you are, the more you get treated like a girl.


You know it was a bad sign yesterday, when Will walked into my apartment, didn't even say hi!, and started preheating the oven >_<

Lucky me, Izzie wasn't eating anything either, so I was in the clear! Although it was pure torture to have my entire apartment smell like food. Isn't it bad enough that my downstairs neighbor is ALWAYS grilling?

But I digress. The scale appears to have not moved at all as of this morning -_-

To top it off, I actually have to work my HORRIBLE job this morning. I thought I worked this afternoon, and that I would have time to study. Guess not. Makes me a bit nervous for my exam =X

Other than that, just gonna have to find the most sugary juice to take with me this morning. Mostly because my job kills me on a good day, and is 20X worse this time of year because of the Freshman moving out of the dorm.

Ughhhh

and that exam =/

Anyways, doing good so far, wish me more luck!

~Wendy

He was a skater boy!

Reason to be Skinny #15:

Sex appeal, simple as that.


So far so good with fast day #1.

I had milk this morning before I decided on the fast, then nothing but water until about an hour ago.

I had to go to the grocery store because there was about NOTHING left in my fridge.

After buying nothing but juice, light soymilk, and coke at the store I came home with my $45 of groceries.

Yeah, I'm right with you on the fact of $45 of juice.

The idea is that if I run myself out of grocery money though, then I can't give in and go buy food. Twisted in it's own way.

Anyways so now, besides that in my fridge there is beer, some wine, carrot sticks, and 2 packs of sugar free pudding. All of that had better be there on Saturday.

Since getting home, I've had a small serving of white grape juice, and I'm sipping on mixed berry green tea right now.

Izzie and Will are coming over in a little bit, and I am hoping that it doesn't involve food. It doesn't usually on Wednesdays, but tomorrow will be another battle.

Here's to hoping though!!!!!

I WILL stick with this. I WILL!!!!

Still need to study though, shit. At least my last exam is tomorrow. Then I only have to deal with work. =/

~Wendy

The pain she puts me through is what I need.

Reason to be Skinny #14: Because then people think "Eat a damn sandwich" instead of "You could use to skip a few meals".


Weigh in today was 186.6lbs

Total week lose of 1.4lbs, which is .2lbs more than last week.

Still kinda sick of this shit though. Soooooooooo I'm going on an adventure.

I have about a week until I go on a two week tropical vaca with my family (during which I will mostly likely have to eat at least semi normal -_-), and I have until Saturday to be living by myself (Izzie and Will are couch crashing until their new apartment is ready).

So it sounds like it's time for a fast.

Liquid fast it is, because this is mostly to just keep calories low, and get through the hunger. Also because I have finals and need to concentrate, and because the last time I did a water fast I didn't even last 24 hours and it ended in a binge -_-

Goal it to at least make it to Friday. If not Midday Saturday. Sunday is an almost promised no go.

So Heeeeerrrrreeeee weeee goooooo!

~Wendy

P.S. Wonder what has kicked my ass into gear? I was flipping through some old photos, and found one of me at my largest. I've included it, after some shitty paint editing for security. The full picture is way worse because my forever skinny ass friend with large boobs is standing next to me. For some perspective, the jeans I'm wearing in that picture are size 16. It's guesstimated that I weighed about 212 lbs in that picture, but I don't know for sure because I didn't have a scale at the time. NEVER getting back to that is my life's goal. I'm currently loss in size 14, and as I discovered almost 2 weeks ago, I CAN wear size 12's. This is my reverse thinspiration. That's not even a "muffin" top anymore, it's about to be it's own area code. FUCK!

I'm awesome.....

Reason to be Skinny #13:

Blood sugar problems stand a good chance of disappearing!


I'll hope you'll excuse me for being so touch and go this past week. It's finals week at my Uni. To top it off, I also started my new Job yesterday.

Feel free to NOT read this post if you don't like bitching.

Please excuse me as I whine and rant a little bit in this post. It is out of character for me, but I'm getting a little pissed off.

I'm having serious sleep issues this entire last semester. I can't STAY asleep for an entire night to save my life. Put it this way, a good night is if I only wake up twice. On a bad night, I'll remember waking up as many as 18-20 times.

Imagine if you had someone poke you awake even 10 times in a night going "Hey, Hey..." Then you ask "what?" and they say "Never mind, go back to sleep!"

No imagine that every night for a week.

So yes, I'm a little cranky, I think you would be too!

I'm a very level headed person most days. I can read my emotions to a tee, and I don't overreact about ANYTHING. The worst part about letting my emotions get the best of me is that I KNOW that they are, and I KNOW that it's not a big deal, and I KNOW that I'm not really upset.... but I can NOT stop it from happening.

When I'm tired, my emotions go haywire, and I can't stop them. But see, since I know they are out of whack, I won't express them AT ALL. So rather than throwing a temper tantrum because things aren't going my way, or actually yelling at the person who has me looking for a shiv, I just hold that shit inside until my body physically feels like it's gone on an adrenaline hormone induced roller coaster. Not the good kind either, more of the kind that you get off all pissed off because you just waited for 2 hours to go on THAT shitty 30 second ride!

But I digress.

It's finals week, I'm stressed.

Stress exacerbates my sleeping issues.

Being tired AND stressed exacerbates my blood sugar problem.

My blood sugar problem exacerbates my hormones making me irritable and moody.

Being a nervous wreck exacerbates my stress level.

Plus, it's still finals week, and I'm still failing a class.


Vicious circle?


I'm tired cranky and upset (if you hadn't noticed).

My blood sugar being so fucked up dictates that I HAVE to eat.

My being upset dictates that I have no appetite, and really can't stomach to eat.

So I'm off the diet pop for two reasons, (1) artificial sweeteners have in the past shown to make my mood swings worse, and (2) the sugar and calorie content will at least keep me out of a coma, despite not being able to level off my blood sugar.

I've managed to eat about a days worth of real food (my day NOT theirs) in the last 3.

Oh, and to touch up on the last post, I don't actually keep junk food in my house. I honestly hate it. Not potato chips, no sweets, no... junk. Those tortilla chips I mentioned are the worst thing I have IN the house (I bought them for when Nicole came to visit) and I haven't touched them since I last mentioned them....

I went to a hockey party the other day. I ate 2 chicken wings, and felt so guilty and disgusted that I didn't eat anything til the next afternoon. Ate some carrot sticks the other night, then went of a binge drinking spree that caused me to puke them all up. (6 pack in 2 hours NOT a good life choice). Why was a drinking?

That was the most solid 5 hours of sleep I've had in the last 2 weeks.

My mom says that my sleep would fix itself if I was more active.

I told her that I run every day, and that I work a very physical job, and that I walk almost EVERYWHERE I go.

She said that maybe I should run harder. You know, REALLY tire myself out.

.... because clearly I am not tired enough yet. -_-



Moral of the story is: I'm a fucking wreck.


~Wendy

P.S. Did I mention extreme stress has never NOT made me gain weight? Guess who has a weigh in first thing in the morning.... oh right. =(

Never gonna give you up.....

Reason #12 to be skinny:

So I can get Tattoos without them being distorted.


I've always been a big believe in Karma. The divine cosmic balance and all that.

I'm not very religious, in the sense that I don't subscribe to a specific religion. But I do believe.

Bad things happen so that good things can happen. EVERYTHING happens for a reason.


My life is coming back up, despite my major failure. I've calmed down, and realized that I can fix this. It'll take time, but I CAN fix this.

I got news on the Job I interviewed for. I GOT THE JOB! =D It's amazingly exciting.

Plus, Red Wings won last night X-D

Things are looking up.


In other news, my eating is erratic still and I am paying for it. I go hours on end without eating. But when I eat, it's not like I binge or eat normal even. I graze on stupid snack foods (a few tortilla chips, or carrots and ranch etc.)

Yesterday, I had my blood sugar completely drop out on me. Not just that, but I had A LOT of trouble getting it back up after wards. It was actually kind of scary. I drank some light chocolate soy milk because of the sugar, but I couldn't get it to come back up. So I headed for protein. I ate a quarter of a package of lunch meat turkey, and I still couldn't get it to level off. In fact it was still dropping! Lucky me, that was when Will and Izzie showed up with some bread sticks and pizza for the hockey game. After eating 2 bread sticks, I got my blood sugar to level off. After a piece of pizza I was finally okay again.

It's one of the worst attacks I've had in a long time. For anyone who doesn't know, having on of these attacks sucks ass. It's like you're shivering, but with no control over it. Your hands shake, and you can't hold anything still. The longer it goes on the worse the shaking gets. You get light headed, and if you pass out from it you're in major trouble.

Overall shit.

But even today I'm doing much better despite not eating barley anything. Hopefully that has been put behind me.

I hope everyone else is doing well.

Til later,
~Wendy

I'm a nervous wreck

Reason #11 to be skinny:

So I won't be a fat American when I travel abroad.


When Nicole was here before she brought up something. She was eating breakfast, and I offered the girl that was there to pick her up some food. I wasn't eating, and the other girl declined too.

So Nicole is all starts telling her that I was never a breakfast person in high school. She actually brings up that I use to just say that I would eat at lunch, but then say I wasn't hungry at lunch too.

It was just this random conversation.

The funny part is, that's just how I was back then. Never hungry. My entire family is overweight and I've always shied away from food. I am actually the smallest of us all.... doesn't say much huh?

I'm not a person who eats my feelings. Never have been. When I get stressed out, I can end up making myself sick, therefor when I get upset I won't eat. For days on end without knowing it.

So why do I bring this up???

Well, I got some bad news....

I'm going to be failing my first class in 17 years of schooling. Not failing like "getting a C and it's not what I wanted" failing. No failing like "I'm GETTING A FUCKING F" failing.

There is no way I'm getting into grad school now. The programs are too selective. They will never fucking take me!

Just like that I fucked my whole life.

So for the last 2 days, I've been starving all day, and then going on a binge for about an hour. My body kicks in with wanting food and I fucking mindlessly eat. I'm not going over 1000 calories, so I don't feel that bad... but what the fuck.

Fuck

Fuck


FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!









Fuck


~Wendy

Don't act like a starving model

Reason #10 to be skinny:

Because it feels amazing!!!!


188.0 is my official weigh in this morning.

That's a 1.2lb weight loss in a week.



I wish it could have been more, but hey... I'm fucking LOSING again. Plus I had to jump of the plan for a a day or two.

I'll catch up on all of your blogs again tonight. Right now I'm heading off to my soul sucking job. Catch ya later!

~Wendy

Don't fuck me around.....

Reason #9 to be skinny:

So I can stop wondering which outfits I have that make me look fat!



Sorry I haven't updated. The last few days were rough. Kinda binged last night, and PAID for it! (awake with nightmares etc.)

Anyways, I have a Job Interview this evening. Red Wings play, and I have a charity dinner thing to go to! Hopefully all goes well! I'll prolly be back to update some time after that....

~Wendy

Are you in?

Reason #8 to be skinny:

So just once someone can think I'm "too thin" (even if they're wrong).



My day got kinda crazy after I last wrote. Ended up skipping lunch, literally because I didn't have time for it! Which was sad =( But worked in my favor because of dinner.

It was sketchy for a bit, because my blood sugar started to dip, but I held out until dinner =)

Also DIDN'T buy more juice today. Now all that's in my fridge is soda (and I will only touch the diet kind.) Yay for coke zero!

So Will made dinner. It was Tortellini with a sausage tomato sauce. Pretty good actually. I had a small bowl of it. I won't lie I went back for seconds, but 2 bites into that realized that I was full! But I had a whole portion still left in front of me. So I asked Izzie to split the rest with me and she agreed. Then Erin said she would take some too if I was feeling too full. So I got to be all stealthy and basically give them my entire bowl. (There was a little bit of sausage sauce still left after they were done.) Score one for me! =D

Plus, although I drank wine and beer (not much, and remember alcohol has no calories in my school of thinking.) I didn't indulge on chocolate pudding, banana pudding, or orange sherbet like everyone else was. =) I take my victories where I can. Overall not too bad of a day.

So onto tomorrow, since I most likely not be posting in the morning (work FIRST thing), and I don't know if I can make a post tomorrow night. I'm going to try to, but it can't be when Nicole is around. =/

So I have to go to work. Then as I am now remembering I stupidly asked Izzie and Will to have lunch with me when I got off. I only have an hour break between work and class on fridays, so they always bring me lunch after work. Now I NEED to come up with something that is under 150 calories that they can bring me. =/ It looks like one piece of cheese pizza clocks in around 140 calories. So I should be okay, and within the rules, if I can get them to bring me JUST that. Hopefully I can get that to happen.

After class, me and Izzie are going to the bead store. Izzie makes jewelry, and I was talking to her about wanting a braclet. ;-)

It's going to be pink and red, and hopefully look AMAZING when done. I want it to be just as much art, as it is a reminder of why I'm doing this. Maybe I'll even post a picture when it's done.

Also need to get Laundry done 0.o

and grocery shopping,

and a bike ride with Izzie and Will,

and hockey and beer. (Because PS I am a GINORMOUS Red Wings fan, and it's playoffs bitches!)

Plus Nicole is getting into town late tomorrow night (like during the wings game -_-).

I don't know if there are enough hours in the day! I need to just get it all done!

Hopefully I'll talk to you all soon! Love ya's

~Wendy

Worst pies in London

Reason #7 to be Skinny:

Because all good rock stars are!


So awake this morning, and had breakfast. Cinnamon Toast Crunch and milk (175). I technically should be alternating breakfasts, so that my calorie count keeps switching up, but meh.

Some dude has been chainsawing outside of my apartment for the last hour and a half. Ughhh I guess it was a good thing I didn't try and sleep in!

So I'm really writing this entry to just try and get some things out of my head, and on to (paper?) blog.

Tonight is dreaded Thursday dinner night. I was going to cook, but I have a lot of cleaning to get done in the next 24 hours and Will jumped on volunteering. Awesome. So since it's food out of my control again, I'm going to try and eat the bare fucking minimum that I can get away with. That is plan A.

I'm just hoping that he doesn't make anything too bad, because he uses my apartment to cook, and the last time it was his turn, my apartment smelled like fried foods for almost 2 weeks! =o

Also, tomorrow my friend Nicole is coming into town to visit me. She told me this like 2 days ago. She's also been VERY vague on her plans (like how long she's staying etc.) So my plan is to go to the store and get some bread and turkey, so that we have that around for lunch. I'll still eat salad, but that way she has another option and doesn't think it's weird. I'm also going to make something I guess. Hopefully low calorie. Maybe the Tuna noodle broccoli thing I make. It's like under 300 calories in a serving, but it only makes 4 servings. So basically No matter how much Nicole has I can still keep it split up into acceptable portions afterwards =) and that way I don't have to explain my dividing of food, and she can have as much food as she wants. Thus making her less suspicious of me!

Okay, so that's the plan to get me through until at least Monday. Then we start a whole new week.

Trying to stay strong here. Peace out!

~Wendy

P.S. Charlie and Z thank you so much for reading and commenting. It's super nice to know that other people out there care like I do ^_^ <3

I'm in Distress

Reason #6 to be Skinny:

So I won't feel embarrassed when I go to the gym.


Weighed in this morning 189.2

It's not what I wanted, but at least it's in the 80's. Plus it means my BMI is still in the "overweight" zone and not the "obese" zone. I need to take these small victories.

The day itself was pretty uneventful. Other than me wanting to tell my job where to show it. My boss just likes to insult my intelligence every other time I work. Argh! I don't even want to talk about it.

So For breakfast I had Cinnamon Toast crunch with fat free milk (175).

Lunch I had a small salad (90).

Dinner was another fresh steamer thing. This time Chicken pad thai (270). It was actually kinda gross. I don't recommend that one. although it was bearable after I added pepper flakes to it. I love pepper flakes, I have rediscovered my love of them. =D

Crimson tide came in today too, so I let myself have a snack of chocolate sugar free pudding. I thought it was within the 50 calorie limit, but turns out it's actually (60). Well, I guess I know for next time =/ and today is fail for sticking to the rules. =(

Calorie total was 595, still under 600.

I need to head to bed now though since I am getting random food cravings. Breakfast comes first thing in the morning. Night all.

~Wendy

You only meant well, well of course you did!

Reason #5 to be Skinny:

So I can finally show off my stomach.



Still oddly happy about the pants =)

So lunch, had strawberries and cream oatmeal (130).

Then went to class, did boring stuff, and got distracted by the internet!

Was hungry, didn't feel like cooking (more like didn't have enough time to clean my kitchen AND cook). I was going to go to Taco bell, but after a long internal argument decided to just go get a lean frozen meal from walmart instead.

Overall a better life choice.

So Dinner was Healthy Choice Cafe Steamers Balsamic Garlic Chicken (270). It was amazing! One of those things that I can believe I can eat. MUCH better choice than T bell, where at minimum I would have wasted 380 calories!

So my total for today was ((575)) calories!!!! That's pretty good. Although it is tongue in cheek because of all the juice I've been drinking but not counting =/

Oh well. Tomorrow morning is my first weigh in. Let's see where my starting bar is for this time around.

Night all!

~Wendy

I don't give a damn about my bad reputation!

Reason #4 to be skinny:

Because I can fit in smaller pants!!!!!!!



HOLY SHIT!

Really, I am sorry for blogging so much today but HOLY FUCKING SHIT!

I was walking into my room, and saw the pair 12 pants that I had sitting on my desk. You know, the ones I tried on last like a month ago and wouldn't fit over my giant ass!?!?!??!

So I get all like "Hmmmm I wonder!"

Now when I went from size 16 to 14 originally the only reason I knew I needed to was because a friend of mine (*cough* John *cough*) Pants me! So I tried the test with my 14's just now. Could I pull them off without unbuttoning them? I tried and I could! (although barely).

So I picked up the 12's. The waste was so small I was like, there is no fucking way!

So I pulled them up, and they went over my ass (with a little help from jumping and the squat test).

Then came the real test. Could I button and zipper them?

And I could!

So they are super tight, and I have a muffin top, but they fucking FIT! OH MY GOD!

So I can fit in size 12s and I am on cloud 9.

Time to go eat lunch. I just needed to share with someone =D

~Wendy!!!!!!!

Made my decision, lead a path of self distruction

Reason #3 to be Skinny:

So Boys will actually STOP to look at me.



Hey guys!

Sorry if I'm posting to many blogs for your taste, but I really need to make sure that I get back into the habit of blogging.

So far today I've gotten up and stuck to my rules. A half hour after waking up I ate 3/4 cup Cinnamon Toast Crunch with 1/2 cup Fat Free Milk (175). I am back on the plan =D

I can't wait to start seeing the numbers drop again. Screw doing this "The right way" I managed to lose 15 lbs doing it my way before, and when I switched over I stayed the exact same, for over a month! That is wasted time I will never get back! FUCK!

But, that's why I'm back on track now. Seems like almost everyone else died off here while I was gone though. =/

To bad, I miss reading about everyone else's battles too. In the whole makes me feel not alone way.

Anyways, peace out for awhile! Hope you all have great days! I'll report back in tonight!

~Wendy

You're not the Jesus of Suburbia!

Reason #2 to be skinny :

So I can face beach season with confidence!


The rest of today played out mostly good. Had to have a snack, half a cheese stick (30).

Had dinner of a package of beef ramen (380). I added dehydrated crushed red pepper flakes to it at a friends recommendation. It was AMAZING! If you like spicy food, and can afford the calories then you really need to try it!

Tomorrow I'm going to stick to the plan again. Haven't been to the grocery store to get lunch foods, but I might even be able to get a "double breakfast" in based on my rules.

Also missed my guitar lesson today. Not a good way to get back into things. Blah!

It's the end of the semester, and there is so much to do, and not nearly enough time. I'm going to focus on the positive though.

I felt hunger in my stomach again for the first time tonight and it felt great. The hungrier I feel, the more I feel like I have earned the food I'm eating. I mean that in a very non diet ruining way too.

Well, I'm off to catch some sleep. Night all!

~Wendy

Nice Guys Finish Last +(NEW RULES)

Well, I'm officially back. The new plan starts today.

You'll have to forgive me if I don't actually count calories for a few days. I'm a little scatterbrained and need to restock my kitchen with foods I know.

So far today, breakfast and lunch have been the same thing. Cinnamon Toast Crunch with Fat Free milk. =)

I have decided that I'm not counting liquid calories either at the moment (Ex: I will count the milk on the cereal, but not the juice I drink). I'm doing that just because it is spring cold season, and my allergies are more than enough to deal with right now without a cold. Orange Juice helps.

I started playing my guitar again yesterday. It's time that I got back to the things I love, and boy do I love that guitar. Yesterday's lesson wasn't all that great though, I've done a lot better. Hopefully it will start coming back to me. It's for sure been awhile.

I quit the biggest loser competition. I know it doesn't seem like I should, but I needed to. I looked back at all my old entries, and before the competition I was losing weight. Some weeks were small, but I was ALWAYS losing. After the competition started, I didn't lose anything. In fact I kept on a gain of about 4 lbs! BOO! People were making me stick to their work out instead of my own, and me and friends would go out eating way to much "because we're all in the same competition". So screw that! I am done with that all!

We're going back to doing this my way! So here are the rules, the same ones I was following before:

1) You must eat breakfast within 30 minutes of waking up, to jump start your metabolism. If Breakfast has to come later (Like if you are eating with family or such) then you must put at least 50 calories in your body within that 30 minutes (a small glass of milk would work great.)

2) Breakfast will NEVER go over 200 calories. EVER! End of story.

3) Lunch will NEVER go over 150 calories!

4) Repeat after me: "I am NOT hungry."

5) Try to avoid snacks at all costs (However sugar free gum is acceptable.) In the event of needing to snack, snacks will not exceed more than 50 calories for the day!

6) Dinner will NEVER exceed 400 calories! There are NO excuses!

7) A "cheat" is allowed, but only if it is preceded with at least 24 hours of fasting! The size of the cheat doesn't matter. (Ex: Indulging in Starbucks, eating at a party without counting, popcorn at a movie, etc.)

8) If the cheat rule is broken (e.g. friend surprises you with starbucks) then you must have as little of it as possible, and make up for it with an extra hour at the gym (Yes, that means added to whatever else was planned.)

9) Weigh ins and measurements are now moved to Wednesday mornings. Going home for the weekend is no longer and excuse to not weigh in!

10) All posts will be closed with a New Reason to be Skinny


I think that covers everything for now. If not I will be back to add more.

Also working towards rewards that are now listed on the right (or will be shortly.) There is no excuse to lose.

I still want to be competing with someone, but it would have to be someone that is like minded, because clearly The biggest loser competition just worked against me. Well, see all you later. Wish me luck!

~Wendy


Reason #1 to be Skinny:

To look good in black skinny jeans!

I'm on a roll, no self control...

Still alive, just seem to have lost the urge to write.

Basically after pulling the all nighter working, I ate my weight in food over the next few days.

I didn't gain a thing. I will never understand that.

I have however been being really good the last few days (even if I have been eating out).

I need to start using this blog the way I use too though, start calorie counting again. Bet the weight will just come right off then. I have goals again!!!!

Decided that I am going home for Easter, mostly because I'm going to be picking up my new car while I'm there! I'm so friggin excited!!!!

Part I am not excited about though is Easter itself. My family has been off my back for awhile now when it comes to Easter, mostly because I HATE almost all food that has to do with it. Always have, since I was LITTLE! So yeah.

Problem is, John was hinting that he wants me to go to his house for Easter dinner if I'm still around. (The two of us actually do share holidays with each other. It's weird I know, but I really kinda like it). This is a problem because he has a big Italian family, and the damn Italians judge you on food, and how much you eat, and blah blah. I wouldn't care except half his family hates me anyways, mainly because I'm not his girlfriend (I'm actually with them in that part and don't understand why he brings me around more than her sometimes).

Graghhhhh maybe I'll just leave town early. Take my car and run!

Well what happens happens. But monday or tuesday depending on when I get back, I'm reviving this blog and my diet. You will know EVERYTHING that I put in my mouth.

Dirty or not ;-)

Well happy holiday anyways. I hope everyone makes it through in one piece.

~Wendy