Reason to be Skinny #19:So boys won't hurt themselves trying to prove they can pick you up. (Stupid boys)
Oh jeez yesterday.....
I really did want food. Really bad =/ I was doing so well too. I actually made bullion chicken broth (5 calories per cup) to have that as a liquid meal.
It was AMAZING! I sipped it slowly, and nothing was out of control. Plus, at that point it tasted pretty damn good too.
Then Will came over, and raided my fridge. Since there's "nothing in here" (yeah, I know! I made it that way!) he decided we should go get a pizza to go with our beer.
The Pizza and Beer is a good luck charm for the red wings. It's two specific brands, and yeah it has to happen. So although I tried to resist that, it had to happen.
So we got pizza and bread sticks. We dropped some off to Izzie (who wasn't feeling well), and me and Will took the rest back to my place to finish watching the game.
Now, I've NEVER had trouble eating in groups of people. As long as you keep cool, and don't attract unwanted attention (harder than it sounds, I know) people will generally distract themselves from watching ANYONE else eat. Act like it's no big deal, and it isn't.
The problem with that is, it doesn't work in one on one situations, so basically when it's just me and will, I have yet to come up with a way for him to not notice what I ate. Example: He's going to know I didn't eat pizza because knowing how much he's eaten makes it obvious how much I didn't.
So, mostly because I didn't want to deal with that, I ate.... a little. I still ate the least out of anyone (including Izzie) and no one is the wiser that I fasted for 2 days before that.
Now Izzie and Will, move in tomorrow, andI don't know what to do. I've never had to hide this from ANYONE before. Not while living with them. Oh jeez is it going to be stressful. But I'm not gonna change my eating habits and get FAT just because they live here. EWWW!!!
GAH! I don't know what to do about this. I'm taking it one day at a time, but they're gonna be here for a month. Then after that there are summer BBQs and Grad Parties, 4th of July and Memorial Day parties to contend with. >=/
But again, one day at a time.
I figure I should go back to my eating schedule, but I still really don't feel like eating, so who knows what I'll do.... =/
~Wendy
Omg, that's tough! Girl, we are cheering for you! Good luck!
ReplyDeleteI feel your pain. When I had roommates, it was horrible. They'd either gang up on me and tell me I'm sick, or they'd force me to eat. I was at my highest weight when I lived with them. I hope things are different for you.
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The 19.reason to be thin is one of the best. i have a lot of boy friends who hug me and lift me up when they see me and evey time i think that: god i weigh so much, he will hurt his back or something.
anyways good luck with your freinds.
I have a mom and well she is at work most of the days so i usually just leave dirty dishes in the sink so it seems that i ate. and sometimes i feed the homless cats with my food, so my mom can see that some food is gone.
Stary strong
Gracile.