Reason #11 to be skinny:
So I won't be a fat American when I travel abroad.
When Nicole was here before she brought up something. She was eating breakfast, and I offered the girl that was there to pick her up some food. I wasn't eating, and the other girl declined too.
So Nicole is all starts telling her that I was never a breakfast person in high school. She actually brings up that I use to just say that I would eat at lunch, but then say I wasn't hungry at lunch too.
It was just this random conversation.
The funny part is, that's just how I was back then. Never hungry. My entire family is overweight and I've always shied away from food. I am actually the smallest of us all.... doesn't say much huh?
I'm not a person who eats my feelings. Never have been. When I get stressed out, I can end up making myself sick, therefor when I get upset I won't eat. For days on end without knowing it.
So why do I bring this up???
Well, I got some bad news....
I'm going to be failing my first class in 17 years of schooling. Not failing like "getting a C and it's not what I wanted" failing. No failing like "I'm GETTING A FUCKING F" failing.
There is no way I'm getting into grad school now. The programs are too selective. They will never fucking take me!
Just like that I fucked my whole life.
So for the last 2 days, I've been starving all day, and then going on a binge for about an hour. My body kicks in with wanting food and I fucking mindlessly eat. I'm not going over 1000 calories, so I don't feel that bad... but what the fuck.
Fuck
Fuck
FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Fuck
~Wendy
I had an F on my transcript and I still got in. Retake the class. Things happen. Grad schools want good grades, but they also want to know that you are well rounded at different things-- have a good resume, good thoughs on your essays, etc. Its not over yet.
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