I don't play your rules I make my own....

Ugggg, well let's say this. I don't sleep well, and survive on very little sleep in the first place, but when I CAN'T sleep (like last night) it does cause screw ups the next day. =( Some were damn well my fault, and at least one wasn't. Soooo here it goes... almost all bad today.

Breakfast was milk and cereal (190).

Did pretty well on my midterm too. I know I passed, and I feel confident that I at least got a B.

My Hot water and heat were both shut of on surprise this morning for repairs to be made. Boo! So I had a sink full of dirty dishes I couldn't wash, which also meant no possible way to make a real lunch. So lunch was a cereal bar (90).

Problem was, being up for soooo long, that wasn't cutting it. So I grabbed some croutons (60). It still didn't cut it. Now remember that I said my heat got shut off too. SO it's winter and my apartment is starting to get cold a few hours later.

The worst part is that I'm cold, and for some reason that makes me hungry and want to eat. So, without really thinking about it, I ate some saltines (120).

Did make it to the gym! Plus it was exciting. I made 2 miles, over 5 minutes faster than I did yesterday!!!! HELLS YES! I was really excited!

Came home, and finally did dishes so my friends could borrow my kitchen to cook dinner. When I was done with that, I realized that my blood sugar was dropping. Now, I've had enough experience to know that I don't mess with this. When my blood sugar drops, I drop, literally!

So to fix the problem, I had to get something with A) Sugar, and B) protein . This ended up being those crazy peanut butter granola bars I bought on accident the other day. It was (150). It did however do the trick, andthat was at least good.

Then a couple hours later, had dinner with friends. They made chicken and steak quesidilla's. Thinking about my blood sugar still (when it drops that low, you're still in trouble for the rest of the day), I ate without thinking and PROMISED that I wouldn't feel bad about it. In the end my stomache hurt, and yeah I felt fucking horrible shit.

My calorie count going into dinner was 615. That's an entire day normally!!!!! PLUS DINNER! =( fuck.

~Wendy

P.S. I forgot to mention yesterday that I was watching some amazing reverse thinspo on TLC yesterday. The shows Half Ton Mom, Half Ton Dad, and Half Ton Teen, were on. The lady they showed on the first one had a BMI of 113!!!!!!!!! She died in the end though =( I felt horrible for her kids.....