If I don't end up puking (naturally) before the end of the night I will be damn surprised. Dear god.
I felt nauseous when I woke up this morning but figured it was probably just dehydration and ignored it.
I ate breakfast Cereal and Milk (145). Worked on homework. Got pissed at my computer, and hit it.... I thought for sure it was broken, because it got stuck in a loop.
Freaked the fuck out because if I had to take it to the school techs to fix that would be bad since I had all my blogs opened up 0.o Major fuck my life.
I restarted my computer and it appears to be fine now. So I had lunch, Salad (90). Mind you by this time I was still feeling nauseous. So I felt like puking even while I was eating.
This isn't weird for me at all mind you. I had an extremely bad case of the stomach flu about 6 years ago when I was away from home. I couldn't stomach to eat ANYTHING for almost an entire week, and not from lack of trying. Moral of the story is ever since then something major got switched in my brain. I can't tell the difference between being hungry and nauseous. I actually have to just guess which.
So at that point I couldn't tell if I was hungry but I made myself wait another 3 hours until I ate dinner.
In that 3 hours came the pain. I don't know how to describe it but I couldn't sit still. It was like my hips hurt and my back and it felt like someone had punched me in the kidney. =( NOT FUCKING FUN! In the midst of that I warmed up my dinner, Steak and Potato Soup (229). Still wasn't feeling great afterward not at all!
Called my mom to complain about not feeling well, and of course she asks me if I've eaten. Fucking right I have! I know myself better than you. Safe to say that at this point, I'm not fucking hungry.
Mom's great advice after that was to just drink some hot TV and hot liquids and such.
So I make Gingerbread Tea with splenda (0).
Starting to feel a little better I made myself another serving of soup (229). Of course, it's not sitting well. I knew it wouldn't but I wanted to give myself the extra boost so that I can fight off this shit , whatever it is.
See I might have maybe skipped like 70% of my classes last week, and if I actually get sick, that's just the universe smiting me! =( I can't deal with that! No more bad semesters!
So my total was 698 for the day. If it can manage to stay in my stomach that long.
Watching figure skating in the Olympics right now. It's both amazing and sad at the same time =( Sure you know why.
One last thing before I go.... I've been on the verge of crying now for the last few hours. No reason really (not PMS and no not even the food). It comes almost as soon as my mind goes blank. I'm really not happy about it, because that usually is a precursor to a full on panic attack. If I have to deal with a panic attack tonight as well I'm not sure what will happen. I'll probably puke. Actually might end up passing out because I already feel like I can't breath form my stomach.
ahaihshfg;jregoiueahjsadg;ifdah
Fuck my life
~Wendy
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