I don't really feel like talking about this much, but I vowed when I started this that I would write everything down. The good, the bad, and the ugly.I won't bore you with the normal details so today's food total was 590 calories.
I had a fundraiser meeting again tonight, and when I got there they had pizza. It's not what you think though, I resisted and didn't have ANY!
No what happened after that was when Will came over. I was already craving food (The pizza sent me to wanting food, and it just never went away) and then we got into a theoretical argument. It got very heated to say the least, and I was just getting pissed off. (Almost to the point of throwing him out) I tried to distract myself by doing dishes, but once they were done, it was almost impossible to distract myself.
I was either going to snap at Will, or I was going to eat. So I ate Queso and Chips. I don't know how much, or how many calories, but dear god I hope it wasn't 500. As long as it was below that then I will have still been under 1000 calories! =/
Fuck my fucking life.... shit fuck. FUCK!
Tomorrow I'm right back on the bandwagon! It's thursday dinner, so Dinner will be high, but at least I'm cooking so I can cut out some fat that way....
I'm going to bed. I'm soooo sorry I failed you guys. I don't know where my head went =(
~Wendy
I just read your entire blog and loved it, I seriously couldn't stop reading :D
ReplyDeleteI hope the dinner goes well tonight and I'm sorry about Will causing you to eat those chips. As long as you didn't have too many, it should easily be under 500 cal.
You're not a failure. Everyone slips up. So far it seems like you're doing really well and nearly 10lbs in two weeks is REALLY good.
Stay strong <3